六九色堂

March 29, 2019

'Call me She because I'm a woman'

Transgender engineering prof shares personal story of coming out on campus, and encourages us to embrace the uncomfortable
Transgender prof Chris Macnab says starting conversations is a first step toward inclusion for transgender people.

Transgender prof Chris Macnab says starting conversations is a first step toward inclusion.

Adrian Shellard, for the 六九色堂

On the outside, Dr. Chris Macnab, PhD, appeared to lead a fulfilling life as an associate professor researching robotics in the聽. But it wasn鈥檛 until she began living as a woman that she felt truly whole and happy.

鈥淲hen I presented as a straight, white, male professor other people assumed I was 鈥榥ormal,鈥 but I was living an exhausting performance and eventually my brain broke down,鈥 says Macnab.

鈥淭he new me enjoys a balanced, whole, integrated, and happy brain. Even though living my natural female self is effortless for me, other people struggle to comprehend that I鈥檓 far healthier than before.鈥

Macnab points out that a lack of acceptance for her identity is also a systemic problem. According to the聽, being transgender is still classified as a mental disorder.

鈥淎ll six psychiatrists I saw immediately told me I was delusional without ever asking me a single question about my childhood, my life experiences, or my sexuality. They wanted me to take anti-psychotics for the rest of my life,鈥 says Macnab.

鈥淚dentifying as gay聽聽only after a lot of political action and protests, but there鈥檚 still a gap with how psychiatrists treat people. I don鈥檛 feel safe and I鈥檓 not sure that I have all the rights that I鈥檓 supposed to have.鈥

Though change happens slowly, progress is happening. In 2018, the World Health Organization committed to聽聽in the next version of the manual, which is used by most countries around the world.聽

Another positive initiative that has picked up steam over the past decade is the聽, an annual event on March 31 dedicated to celebrating transgender people while raising awareness of the discrimination they still face worldwide.

Starting conversations is a step toward inclusion

If we can鈥檛 rely on our manuals or legislature, how can individuals create inclusive environments for transgender people? For Macnab, the answer is simple 鈥斅爐hrough conversations.

鈥淪ince I鈥檝e been living my true self, I don鈥檛 think I get evaluated for my words, behaviours, ethics, or principles very often 鈥斅營 usually get judged for how uncomfortable I make other people feel,鈥 she says.

鈥淚f a transgender person makes you uncomfortable, instead of avoiding them or ignoring them, invite them for a cup of coffee and have a conversation. Forget what you have read about `transgender鈥 and be open to learning. The transgender experience is still very much a mystery and is a unique journey for each individual.聽聽

鈥淚鈥檓 still raging at the way the system works and the way I鈥檝e been treated, but I also know I鈥檓 in a privileged position compared to many other transgender people, who feel they must keep their experiences secret in order to be safe. Not only can I teach my students about tolerance and diversity, but I can write articles in academic journals to change the way the world understands and treats the transgender community. I鈥檓 not afraid of revealing things about myself and I hope that by sharing my experiences and telling my story, people will learn from me."聽